Fatigue

Several days ago I returned home without any strength, not even to eat dinner. Work and my obligations had become overwhelming and I could no longer stand the frustration. I had even begun to disbelieve the existence of God, and His divine grace, because nothing I asked for in prayer had happened. I believed that everything should be solved by our Father, that He would deliver me from my personal burdens without having to make any sacrifice. Waiting for magical solutions was my worst flaw, and I knew deep down that if I didn't get involved in my own well-being, nobody would do it.


I understood that it was not about myself, that testing our faith is not enough when we are not willing to renew our devotion. That requires great courage in order to be able to stop and evaluate in which aspects we are not being solid Christians. Also, there were my shortcomings as God's child. Submitting our own attitudes to judgment can often be uncomfortable but may be very revealing. Overall, we should try to modify the things that are not making us happy, and it is hard for us to change but we must do so in order to achieve our peace.